QUENCH MY THIRST.
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wan to SERVE HARD
CCHMS : 50
brother to receive Christ
go VJC
ripples slipper
EB : 35
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Wednesday, May 31, 2006
today very hectic. haix. woke up ard 11. then did some stuff on the com. then when going to sch that time realised phone's on/off button spoilt. planned to rush get it repaired then go sch. in the end had to go a few places then found one tat could help me do.
then later the person say my LCD also spoilt. wa.. i felt so lost then. haix. then i ran ard trying to find someone else who could help me fix my LCD. found it but they say will take one hr. haix. then went home, got money frm bro. slacked ard. totally din bother to go sch le. then when it was repaired, realised Bring It On was starting. rushed to nexus. and we did a 'rehearsal'.
it was so, haha, messy la. yep. so went up, did our stuff. but really messy, all over the place. well. the idea was cooked up ytd. i think we can be the entertainment interlude lorx. make ppl laugh. HAHA.
then from then on, things began to settle la. i think that being at nexus really give a calming effect. being with all the sisters really, i dunno, calmed me down. then went for tuition. well that's my day.
well, ya la. so sian lorx. haix, goodness, its so crap la.
i really feel my parents come on vry strong, especially my mom. they really dunno how to teach lorx. haix, its the only reason why i can forgive them. being the oldest or ard the age of the oldest is difficult. nxt time i'll warn my parents against treating my sister the same way they treated me. ah watever la.
philippians 3:8.
yes indeed, everything else is rubbish. aww heck.
camp objectives set? do them up quickly and fix them in ur mind!
blessed.
changeme.
11:40 PM
just looked thru the basis of our prom this yr. really thank the gals frm 4 DL and chessia. sweet gals. =)
hmmx. this wk is like so filled up. better start doing some studying soon.
prom06
click to see. lol.
housewarming and camp coming soon!!!! yay!
changeme.
11:52 AM
Tuesday, May 30, 2006
oh man, i have to score A1 this time. if not, i am DEAD. ahh!!
haix haix haix, all the stuff are not EASY lorx. especially paper one.
i feel like i'm so dead la.
haix, wat do i have but faith left for this paper?
gonna go mad over worrying for this....
High School Musical is so freaking nice.
haha. VERY nice.
hmmx, bring it on.
haix haix. gimme some ideas?
ah well...
God bless?
changeme.
12:01 AM
Sunday, May 28, 2006
woohoo! High School Musical is damn cool. haven watched it yet, but i know its gonna be. aww manx, why do i live in Singapore? its been out for so long and i only know it now.. aww.. their songs and dance moves are gonna be mind blowing!
i wanna buy their dvd and cd. hah, its a really great show, one of the coolest disney showi have EVER watched, or rather, ever heard of.
HSM rocks!
tmr CL o'lvl. must get A1
i submit it into Your hands.
changeme.
6:33 PM
Thursday, May 25, 2006
too much stuff
wat ever, tmr is the last day of sch
let me learn to let go and hold onto You
changeme.
11:19 PM
life's not easy
so much stuff and everything is just so laggy
well, i really dunno wat i can do
NEED to give up,
but the problem is,
i don't think i WANT to.
its a MAJOR problem
i must WANT to give it up
going all out for God means that u have to sacrifice,
and i KNOW its the right thing to do.
its not like God owes me something if i give it up.
i mean, He gave up His Son so long ago.
ya, so i really HAVE to do the right hting lorx.
cos its more that i owe it to God.
ahh well.
i know You will guide me
changeme.
12:06 AM
Monday, May 22, 2006
well.. L1R5 of 24. what can i say but thank God for the drop in 5 marks from my SA1. haix. still need to see teacher but no need HOD. yay! computer filled w/ virus and spyware. ah well. hope that these few mths go well.
i place my life fully into Your hands.
guide me and lead me.
changeme.
4:00 PM
Friday, May 19, 2006
Because Of You by Kelly Clarkson
I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
you felt so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing!
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life
because it's empty
Because of you
Afraid
Because of you
Because of you
changeme.
10:40 PM
why do our parents not listen to us?
IT'S SO HARD.
because of you by kelly clarkson.
its so true
changeme.
10:26 PM
only parents can bring hurts so deeply.
only parents can hurt us so damn much
why do they do this to us?
why do they make us hurt SO DAMN DEEPLY?
WHY?
this week has been filled w/ so much pain, so much hurts.
why don't they understand how much we love them?
its so SICK, the way our parents hurt us again and again
when we try to do the best for them
its so SICK that they try to break us in every way,
they try to destroy us our individuality.
i am surprised that i even endure till now.
WHY do we FORGIVE each and every time?
IT HURTS SO DAMN MUCH.
why do they cause our tears to flow?
why do they always make us so MAD, so HURT?
THEY SHOULDN'T! but they did.
WHY?!?!
'cos they are not perfect.
take me away from this hurt and pain, oh Lord.
i wan to forgive their bitterness, their cutting words.
give me strength and courage to live.
guide me.
beyond all of this, i will learn to depend on You, the PERFECT Father.
i will lean on You,
i will come to You as a child, to learn how to love all over again.
to be loved in the true perfect way.
let me be comforted by You, let me be still.
i enjoy solitude with You.
erase all the pain and hurts.
take away all bitterness,
there is no one else but YOU.
changeme.
9:48 PM
Sunday, May 14, 2006
i have to give it up,
i have to relinquish it.
i can't hold it anymore, i cannot.
i have to be FORCED to give it up.
i MUST.
there is no such thing as in between,
no such thing as sitting on the fence.
i have chosen and therefore, i have to give it up.
I MUST.
john 15:1-8
trying to bring something out of it.
guide me.
blessed
changeme.
1:37 AM
Friday, May 12, 2006
i am wasting my time. i need a substitute, i need something to take my mind off...
how can i survive like this?
how can i live like this?
its not easy..
i must & i will overcome this.
this is not something i will tolerate having in my life
i don't wan to live with this guilt.
its not easy...
help me to become the person You wan me to be
help me to escape from this place.
bring me through,
guide me out...
its not easy...
to be me.
i know you'll guide me thru.
i wanna pray for:
CCHMS St John ppl - camp won't collide w/ ENCOUNTER
cat - parents to don't quarrel.
jac - stand firm & strong. wanna be there for her.
ying hui - to be gentle and patient
swee hong - to continue growing
tmr gonna be great. =)
God blessed
changeme.
11:21 PM
this is mad.
this is crazy.
this is insane.
this is amazing
this is awesome.
this is wonderful.
this is beyond my comprehension.
I CAN ACTUALLY GO FOR CAMP!!!
do i hear Amen all around??
i dunno how God did it, i really dunno how God did it... how did He soften my dad's heart? How did He make my dad listen to me? how did He put words in my mouth that will convince my dad? i really dunno.. WOW
so WOW-ed.
can't help but left floundering, trying to catch up when i realised my dad was going to allow me to go for camp.
i was left floundering behind as God continue to move in my dad.
WOOSH!
its been less that 7 hrs since i had nth but faith and now faith has given me what i need. WOW.
i really can't describe the wonder that God has left in me.
WOW.
thank God for God.
and bernard. lol
i dun wanna EVER forget this time today.
felt His tangible presence, so REAL.
need prayers to get 5As and 3Bs or better.
thanks.. in faith, we'll receive
AMEN!
changeme.
12:13 AM
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
had a wake up call.
You are my life
You are my all.
i need no one else,
other than You.
its just You,
purely You.
all i want, is You.
let this be my motto, my battle cry, my prayer.
it's all about You.
no one else.
how could i not be moved? how could i?
when all that is left is You,
when all is lost except You.
i turn to You and hear You say,
"i have always been here, my child."
why wait until all is lost before u realised how precious He is...
let me be touched by You tonight...
i don care whatever emath anymore.. i wanna be right with You, before You..
draw me, draw me into Your presence.
drown me, drown me in Your glory.
fill me, fill me with Your being.
let me be so close to You,
let me drown...
i wanna be so close to You,
i wanna be brought near to You
i need You
i need all of You.
There is no one else other than You,
there is no one else but You.
You are my one and only,
You are awesome and holy
draw me closer
and closer to You
let me be so close to You.
bring me thru,
fill my heart.
i know we'll never be apart.
nothing can ever separate us,
nothing can.
i hold You so close,
i hold You close to my heart,
where we'll nv be apart.
come and be SO CLOSE to me...
changeme.
10:45 PM
Saturday, May 06, 2006
God can beat your greatest dreams.
Give him the biggest dream you have,
And He'll turn it upside down, downside up.
He'll give you in return something beyond your dreams,
beyond your wildest imagination.
changeme.
9:06 PM
Friday, May 05, 2006
these few days have been bad.
i miss the PASSION.
wanna go for camp so pls pray for me kay?
blessed.
changeme.
10:18 PM